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I originally had another post scheduled for today but I am going to postpone it for something much more important. October is Depression Awareness Month and I am writing about it because it is very important to me. Also, October 11 is National Depression Screening Day.

I have struggled with depression over the years. Most recently my depression has spiraled to such a state that I could no longer try to ignore it. It took a lot to be willing to admit that my depression has increasingly worsened over the last three years. I didn't want to admit that I was depressed.
I finally asked my husband and mom for help and I'm happy to say they've been incredibly supportive. I can finally seek the help I need and feel confident that I will have the people I love the most by my side.

I write about this because I know how destructive depression can be. In 2005, my sister-in-law took her own life. I wrote about it HERE. It was unbelievably devastating. That is precisely why I chose to seek help. I couldn't hurt my husband and our families like that. And this compels me to not only find help but urge any of those suffering to join me.

Please be aware that depression is more than just feeling sad or wallowing in pity. The following is a list of symptoms:

According to the National Institute of Mental Health, symptoms of depression may include the following:
  • Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
  • Fatigue and decreased energy
  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
  • Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
  • Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
  • Irritability, restlessness
  • Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
  • Overeating or appetite loss
  • Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
  • Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
  • Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts

If you or anyone close to you meets this criteria, I beg you to please be screened and seek help. It can save your life or the life of someone you love. I highly recommend this website: Crisis Chat. 
Crisis Chat offers free non-judgemental chat services to:  anyone who is depressed, despairing, going through a hard time and just needs to talk, including people who are thinking about suicide.  A chat visitor does not have to be thinking about suicide to use Crisis Chat.  Any life issue, whether it be depression, family issues, relationship problems, and financial issues, among others, may be discussed on Crisis Chat.  Crisis Chat Specialists are here to listen and support you through whatever difficulties you may be having.
Crisis Chat volunteers can help you find mental health resources as well.

Green is the color for Depression Awareness Month and following here are some green polish swatches.

Thank you for indulging me. Please, please seek help if you need it and be supportive of those you love who are fighting depression. Your support can help so much!

Some text was taken from WebMD for the purpose of clarification.


  1. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder when my eating disorder was taking over my life. Depression is something I wouldn't wish on anyone, and I'm sorry to hear that you have struggled. I hope that you're in a better place now and you got the help you need!! You go girl! :)

    1. Thank you for sharing this. I hope your journey into better health continues to improve.

      I'm doing better than I was two months ago. There is much more to do and I feel good about the fight.

  2. I was not aware that October is Depression Awareness Month! I also just recently reached out for help, because I am too worn down to deal with the crap alone anymore. It's been an ongoing struggle for years, off and on, so I just plastered on a smile and muddled through. I guess I thought it was like nail polish and would eventually wear away. Let us rock some green polish, ladies.

    1. Thank you for coming by and sharing.
      I'm glad to hear you have sought help as well. I hope you will find better health.


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