I originally had another post scheduled for today but I am going to postpone it for something much more important. October is Depression Awareness Month and I am writing about it because it is very important to me. Also, October 11 is National Depression Screening Day.
I have struggled with depression over the years. Most recently my depression has spiraled to such a state that I could no longer try to ignore it. It took a lot to be willing to admit that my depression has increasingly worsened over the last three years. I didn't want to admit that I was depressed.
I finally asked my husband and mom for help and I'm happy to say they've been incredibly supportive. I can finally seek the help I need and feel confident that I will have the people I love the most by my side.
I write about this because I know how destructive depression can be. In 2005, my sister-in-law took her own life. I wrote about it HERE. It was unbelievably devastating. That is precisely why I chose to seek help. I couldn't hurt my husband and our families like that. And this compels me to not only find help but urge any of those suffering to join me.
Please be aware that depression is more than just feeling sad or wallowing in pity. The following is a list of symptoms:
- Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
- Fatigue and decreased energy
- Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
- Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
- Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
- Irritability, restlessness
- Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
- Overeating or appetite loss
- Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
- Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
- Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts