GUYS. I have things to talk about. SO. MANY. THINGS. I can't guarantee regular postings because I'm old, cranky, suffering from malaise of my own making and THINGS. I have many reasons for not being engaged and many reasons for longing to be engaged. This is my space and you are all just living in it.
That said, I have a small start to what could be coming.
AGE: I'm 43. I'm a Gen Xer. I'm a cisgenderd, hetero woman. Evidently, my generation has a special mid life crisis and I am very much feeling it. I'm officially perimenopausal, at an awkward place in my "career." It's not great. However, I like my 40s. Not as much as my thirties but I'm not mad about it.
Career: Yeah. I've fucked around for too long and though I make more money than I ever did, I don't have much to show for it professionally. I didn't finish colllege, I'm undisciplined and I still don't know what I want to do. That's pretty bad since I seriously need to think about retirement.
Personal: Pretty damn good considering. I've been with my husband for 20 years, married for 13. I'm still crazy about him and glad I made the commitment. No complaints there.
All of that laid out is to illustrate what will be coming because I HAVE THOUGHTS. I have regrets, I have triumphs and I am grateful. My life is messy as is anyone's and I have to get it off my chest.
I shall end this with some nails because this space really took off with a love of nail polish and nail art and I shan't let you down. I'm also still very passionate about those two things so that's good.
Nice nails! Looking good :-D
ReplyDeleteI am almost 40 and had my first kid when I was 38. I am feeling very old and lost! It scares me to think that I will be 60 when she is 21 :-O